I can feel a burn out settling in. It's happened a few times in the past, and eventually passes. I'll still paint. I'm unsure if I wanted to attend any local tournaments for a while.
I'm tired of the dick waving and shit talking. I don't care when its friendly, but lately it is just been silly.
On one hand, I like that local tournaments have mostly done away with soft scores. I feel it turns tournaments into hobby events, and less about who stomps the most ass.. On the other, soft scores keep jackasses in line and scare off the worst ones. Comp can always die in fire though. I'm talking more about sportsmanship and painting.
I think painting should be required to participate, but there shouldn't be a score for it in a tournament. Sportsmanship is a whole other can of worms. It regulates some people, which is a plus. On the other, people will tank a sports score out of spite just because they took a kicking. Without a sports score at all, people eventually turn into assholes. It's a real lose-lose thing.
Perhaps I should just skip the locals all together. More and more its not worth attending, I feel more like a baby sitter some days than a tournament participant. Sadly, I'm talking about grown men. The prizes are questionable, lousy scenarios and I have to put up with asshole after asshole in some never ending dick measuring contest. Instead of attending the locals, I could just save and hit whatever indy gt's I can afford to get to.
Its like, if you lose or make a mistake.. You instantly suck or something. And if you win, you have to sit there and validate your win. What happened to showing up, playing and win or lose that was that? Do I need to be playing a different game or something?
Anyway, back to painting. The local assholes can go back to beating up on children. I just don't have any desire to educate them further at this time.
